Saturday, October 8, 2011


I know it's been a few days since he's passed, but RIP, Steve. I never knew him or met him, but when I found out he had passed, I felt a twinge inside.
A while back after I read that he had stepped down officially, maybe a few months ago, I read an editorial about him. It was written by someone who was not necessarily a Steve Jobs or Apple fan, which is what made it most interesting to me. The author basically said that no matter how you feel about Steve or his products or his company, that his story was the ultimate underdog + comeback kid story. He was adopted, grew up kinda rough, ended up forming his company, got ran out of said company, then came back to become a household name and make the company bigger than anyone had an idea it would even be. Whenever I think that I can't do something, I'll remember Steve Jobs, because his life is a testament to how you really can think big, dream big, and achieve those dreams on sheer willpower alone. If you don't accept the possibility of defeat or failure, there's no choice but to win.

Sunday, October 2, 2011


I would just like to note for those of you that are football fans and/or are involved in a fantasy football league. Guess who our first two picks were?

Jamaal Charles and Kenny Britt.

Epic fail. I want to pull all my hair out. (Which is saying a lot, 'cause my hair's really long again.)

Mayhem and Bedlam

The title of this post sort of covers my life lately. I can't believe that it's been 3 months since I posted last. But based on my Google Reader RSS, seems like a lot of you are caught up IRL too.

The funny thing about me posting in my blog is that I've always used it as a way to vent or share things with the internets. But in the last few months it seems like I just wonder if anything I have to say is even worth posting. The stupid thing about that's my fucking blog. Why should I care if what I have to say is "worth" posting? If it's mine, I can do whatever I want, right?

There have been a lot of things going on in the last few months. US politics are crazy. Do you guys realize we really are on the verge of having a crazy person running our country? And lest you scoff and say, "Nah, that won't happen", just think about what happened at the midterm elections. I never thought Tea Baggers would be elected to public office, but they were. And now we face one going up against Obama and possibly winning.

The world in general seems to have gone insane, too. The last few years have been really nuts in the rest of the world, and I keep saying the Apocalypse draws nigh. But then, maybe all this upheaval and change is a good thing in the long run? I'm not of the belief that democracy (at least how we practice it in the US) is the best thing for everyone, but I DO think that the people of a country should have a voice in how their country is run. All the natural catastrophes that have been happening are crazy, too. I don't think they're punishment from God or whatever deity you believe in. I'm hoping that they too signal change.

Manz and I are still great. Married life is awesome. We're planning on buying a house down here in SD soon. Well, as soon as we find one we like. The interesting thing about buying a house is that I find I understand why rappers and celebrities from the hood "sell out" and move away from the hood when they can. I don't think it's "selling out", exactly. I think it's finding that your quality of life is getting better, and you'd like to live in a place that reflects that, and also a place where you can relax and FEEL like you're at home. Home should be a sanctuary. Home should not be a place where you have to make sure you lock your doors and walk around fearfully at night. I've realized that for us, what matters most is the location of where we live. I want to live somewhere where all the things I like (i.e., coffee/caffeine sources, food, mild entertainment) are close by and within reasonable walking distance. So far we haven't quite found a place that's nice in and of itself but also in an area where there's some shit happening.

Work is work. I feel like I shouldn't even be talking about it during free time like I am now. I still love my job, but my local organization is so fucked up, and I'm still stuck with the group of co-workers (I call them "the dummies") that make me miserable. I'm getting better at saying "fuck them" and concentrating on myself and what I'm doing.

Last but not least, manz and I have had our non-working lives taken over by the anime Bleach. It's fucking awesome. Great idea for a story, good writing, good characters, just wow. We've been watching it every single day practically for the last few weeks. I think I like it more than Fullmetal Alchemist, which is saying a lot. I think we're probably going to start watching more anime. Especially since this and FMA have been so good.

I think I like my previous idea of posting whenever or wherever I am, (I got Blogsy on my iPad, which goes almost everywhere I do these days) and using this blog how I did my social media platforms. This is my place to say what I want, when I want, and how I want.